Wow. It's been so, so very long. Life got crazy, beyond crazy and there never seemed to be a good time to start back up with this blog. It's not possible to get everything posted here from the last 2 years but I will for sure do my best to play catch up here and there with some "lost volumes" or something of the sort. In the meantime, here's where life is now for us....
One year ago today, I turned our world upside down. I quit my job.
I'm a planner. When I'm on my game, I'm a darn good one too. I have lived my life according to my plan and sure, there's been an obstacle here or there but I made it work to my plan. I planned to go to ISU and become a teacher. Well then I met this guy, so I switched schools but I still became a teacher. They said it was a 5 year program. That wasn't going to work for me. I had already decided to marry that guy and my plan was 4 years. Extra hours and summer classes and I met my plan. Had my dream job before I graduated. I needed to know what was going to be coming. Knew we wanted at least 3 kids and I wanted to be done by the time I was 30. Yeah, obstacles for sure but still followed the plan. I don't make rash decisions, not usually at least. Change is hard, I like routine. My plan at 30 years old went out the window. Our newest beautiful baby girl brought along her own challenges and suddenly my plan didn't sound so wonderful after all. So after months, and months of praying and endless talks of "what if" and sleepless nights, I quit my plan and decided to follow a new one.
I just typed out 5 paragraphs explaining my decision. I just deleted them. Luke and I prayed a lot about this decision. Was it the right one for our family? We had several signs but there was one sign we saw at the same time. It was such a moment of clarity that we looked right at each other and knew. That night, I wrote my resignation letter and we never looked back. A friend sent me this picture after I told her what we had decided.
This has spoken so true for us. I still get asked constantly if I regret leaving. My answer is always, "Not at all." It's pretty easy when I think about it. This morning, I dropped my kids off at school. I took Corbin to his first day of Kindergarten. I have spent more time in their classrooms this school year alone than I ever could've in Reagan's first two years of school. It's only November. I can listen to Fallyn whenever I want. Whenever I want. That peace of mind is priceless. And she is still at school with her friends. We are together all day long most days but she's still at preschool and I still get to be a teacher. It's a pretty wonderful opportunity to be a working mom who has her kids with her all day. Fallyn changed our lives more than we could've ever expected. So it is only fitting that the next posts be all about her. Stay tuned! ;)
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